Little clouds of dreams

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Like dandelions

Fluttering freely in the air

The white fluffy dreams blinking

in the sun; I stand there rooted

Looking at the blinding light

Confusing it with hurdles.

Once the eyes close, it is clear;

the strength I need,the affirmations,

the will and the confidence

It’s all there in me; burning low

But enough to be stroked into a fire

The won’t burn me but has the power

Of a Phoenix to rise from within;

The dreams now stick to me

Like clouds of cotton candy

Sweetening the air and mouth so sticky,

I return to the night, wiser probably.

Letting go 

With half of the things , people or events that bother us , the problem lies with us. No , it is not expectations , ’cause after certain time , we all get used to the patterns. The issue lies when we do not move on. Learning to let go , comes so hard to many of us including me.

Off late , I am doing a lot of things for no reason other than as if I wear heavy weight chains of “it won’t look nice if i do not ..” or “I can not refuse him/her ..”  Whatever those things are ,  the compulsion of doing affects none other but me the most. I become irritated and angry on myself to not able to make a better decision. As a result , neither I enjoy nor can I hide it from the rest of the world. I have been told that this makes me appear as very unhappy or hostile person , which I am not. But once can not argue with perceptions forever , hence the need of the hour is to change yourself and build walls that no one can guess through.

I want to take a stand for my own joy and peace. I want to do things that will make me happy and I also know it should start with being alone and enjoying on my own . As I mentioned in this post, I have decided to shower myself with more of self-love. This will be followed by avoiding external factors that mess up my peace and smiles in the day. The days I can not do that , I will find a corner , let my hair down and read , paint or cook. Or perhaps write a rant post like this 😀

There is a song in hindi ( shared below ) which has lyrics that suggest, it is better to leave at a beautiful turn rather than drag the relationship to gutters and then end it. The same I plan to follow at moments when I know my heart is not in the activity and all my attempts to make it work have been futile.

Am now going to learn to let go of the negative vibes and rather focus on the love that I attract. Lets make some things unknown to the consciousness 😉

 

Be gentle or maybe not ( #OctPoWriMo day 4)

Not just being polite to people nice to you,
Or letting different people be the way they are,
Not only by refraining your judgements on others,
Or letting the goodness prosper within your heart

These make you not really an ideal person
These free you not from further improvement,
It does not mean your flaws are covered,
Or that your life has found the desired purpose

Can you be silent when a friend yells on you
Without a mistake or bother for the truth?
Can you accept with grace , people who shine more
And strive to be just you , but better than before

Can you admit to yourself , when you are wrong
Or accept being misguided by your own thoughts
Can you bear the critics , without a defense
And silence them any day, without being on offense.

You can not stop learning , or working on yourself
If you consider this not being gentle ,
I declare i can not be so for myself ever,
Only death can free me, or end of my writing.

I introspect , i reflect , only as i write. And thisbis what i have been thinking from few days. Lots to learn and lot to change in my ways.

circles

circles,
of pleasure and guilt,
of success and miss,
of tears and pain,
of releif and rains,
of high and low,
of bend or blow,
of hurt and heal
of touch and feel.
circles,
some we form,
some we hold,
some we hate to make,
some we can not break,
some trap us inside,
some push us outside,
some overlap,
some never can.
circles,
of life,
for life,
since life.

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Prompted @ OSI ,

Also linked to Open link night !

Been too long I wrote a poem I guess. This was so refreshing.

Some times in Love …

Some times Love alone is not enough to answer all your doubts.

Sometimes Love alone is the cause of all your doubts.

Some times people are the real influence on your decision.

Some times people are the excuses for your decision.

Some times your heart wants to take risks and live each day head on.

Some times your heart just wants to escape all worries and move on.

Some times the only support is not from people you know

Some times the opposition is not from people but of your own.

Some times Love loses these battles ..

Some times Love wins the war of hearts later on …

Here’s to Love that never loses. and to Lovers that always stay close.

Cheers !

Dealing with people and other thoughts.

Last week was a bit disappointing in terms of people. there were too many instances when I was hurt or upset with friends.

I thought I would write about them , I would vent my frustration/anger about how people behave nowadays but now I am not so sure.

Writing about them is not going to help them or make me feel good about it. but what I am really concerned about is people forgetting how to be nice to others, how to trust others.

Some one questioned me for charging her 30 rps extra for some tickets. I would not have minded that as much the fact she actually paid me whatever she thought was the correct price. what will I benefit from that ??

Another friend keeps asking me to make plans to meet but every time I call her , she has a reason not to come. Moreover she will not answer calls / msgs some days but I can see her active on social sites. I am tired of  making plans for others and waiting for them

A very old friend of mine thinks I am living life all wrong ’cause I do not have any exciting stories to tell him. I do not write all that comes to my mind , I do not go places , I do not tire myself with catching up with N number of people or attend every single event in the city [ Actually I do try for most of the book events ]. why can not people accept change in others ? Do I have to justify my living to all now ?

I do not understand such people. I do not understand many people off-late  I can not react offensively , I can not forget such incidents either. I do not feel like validating myself to others or to tell others if they are right or not. I only wish and feel to pray. Yes, I did not think I would say this, but I really Pray for all these people. I pray first for myself so I can keep my patience. I pray for these people to have peace in their life. I pray for random people who are so critical or negative always for the world.

I pray for Love.
I pray to be with my lover.
[ some friends think that being in a happy relationship has made me so much wise and forgiving. And I agree to this observation.]
I offer my love to god as random wishes whispered in the dark folds of night , as a lonely tear that rolls down my cheeks sometimes as I let go of another demon of my past , as the warm hug to my guy in appreciation of all smiles he has added to my life.
I thank you, Love you , adore you my God !
you are my savior. And I will forever pray for your blessings.

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