You are loved

Few people need validations , like I seek from my loved ones. As much I try , I end up slipping into this trap again. Also , I am quite aware of when the praises come from the heart and when they are just hollow words. In one of these phases , I was thinking of few people around me who are of habit of never appreciating any good done by me. Even if I would have saved them from any mess or been there in their times of need, trust these few to never accept it , forget about being thankful. Truth is, I would never stop doing the same for them still, for I love them. Mostly , how I act is how and who I am for everyone , not just my favorite people. So , how does one consulate oneself when struck with narcissistic thoughts of seeking praises from others ? There are indeed few people who will keep making you aware of the good in you , the good you do and that you are special in your own ways. Such are the people you think of and note all the times that you got praises when you least deserved them. Think of the love you are blessed with irrespective of the flaws and feel the universe responding to the validations you seek. It does not come same time , same way but it always comes back. Universe balances it all – the powers vested in it to be fair “most” time , even if delayed !

So trust in Karma , universe , god – say whatever you may. Feel confident in doing good and being good in your actions and thoughts alike. You are loved. You are special.

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Another year ..

The heart has grown
accustomed to love
Cares and kisses some,
Of you,your shadows,
My wings from your hugs.
The mind has grown
In pushing boundaries,
Breaking away my chains,
Burning paths into wild,
Claiming my rightful place.
Another year of my life,
And yet I started living
Only after we met,
Another year crossed off
Merging goods,bads into the best.

Happy birthday to me !

Countdown .. #100BlogDays #day2

It started around the time I started earning and hence could plan gifts for myself. I have always made a big deal of my birthday as in buying something special or expensive. I can actually list the things i bought in last 7 years for my birthday.  

I can not explain the feeling – its not expectation from friends or family even when I have never had a birthday that was not overwhelmingly love filled . It is neither an obsession for materialistic things. The closest I have come for an explaination is that I value the fact that I am responsible for creating my own happy moments before anyone else does it. No one owes me that. I earned that privilege as I gathered some amazingly kind people around me. But first , i should be willing to pamper myself with love.

I am far away from transitioning the same understanding to some of my flaws and relationships that I hammer due to my fears of losing peole. I still do not value and cherish myself the way I am , this version of me that is sum total of all my past decisions and dreams. And that I suppose is what I should and would be doing this year. This year for my birthday I will be writing , reading more , taking my health seriously and become a better person with a positive outlook. 

Hope you all have figured out about yourself and your goals too !  Let me kNow if I can lend a helping hand to those .. 

Oh , btw its 20 days to my birthday !! 💐 😀 

And they kissed

“Somedays I wish i had kissed a guy before I first met you” she sighed.

“I never stopped you from doing that even today. Go ahead. Have some fun” he said looking at the stars spread in a mysterious pattern above him.

She kept silent, staring at the same stars and suddenly rising up she shouted, “Hurry up then, I need to go kiss someone before its late.” He knew better than to argue, so followed her as she ran down the valley towards their car.Once settled in her seat, she waited impatiently for him to do the same.

And then they kissed.
She grinned. He smiled.

“Hopeless nutcase. Can you not let me watch the stars in peace ever ?” He asked mocking anger

“This is for the guy you were before I met you. You sure have no objection right” she laughed as they drove back home.

The stars could wait, but not the ones they felt inside as the kisses grew bolder.