This post is about me and only me. I figured its high time I did something for myself. Lets start with a post about me. The blog should know what I am upto.

So I am upto nothing right now, I did earn my PMP ( Project Management Professional ) this month *yippee* and studying for that kept me so away from everything that I have no idea how to get back to blogging or just writing or anything remotely creative.

Moving on, today is Karvachauth , the day north indian ladies keep fast all day for long livety of the husbands. It is a day the ladies dress up the best , pamper themselves, celebrate themselves. Everyone around me felt like putting in some time in dressing up and making themselves look special. All I did was wear an ethnic dress today and got mehandi on hands. I thought of many more things to do but even with lot of help from husband all day with cooking , I never thought of anything special for myself. Its like I needed some one to remind me even to dress up and look beautiful. I wonder why I have no interest to look better , to pamper myself or to do things for myself. I need not just mere suggestion but almost have to be forced into doung that. Or an order from my mother-inlaw ;)

So the next goal is to be better health wise and look better other wise. To spend time on self , with self and to learn to appreciate myself. * phew ! Tall order *

And to write more here. Keep reading and commenting. Might inspire me to write more.

Friends forever

“You will always be special to me.
You will always be my friend”

There was a time when these two sentences did not mean the same to me. They just did not belong together unless you were talking of a life time together perhaps. Well in my defense, i was naive and barely a toddler in the universe of love and friendship. I thought I wanted a lover while I needed love of a true friend. And perhaps this battle of need and want is what pushed my first friend , soul sibling and mentor away. Everytime I read of kanha and draupadi , i think of you as my saviour when I needed most. Not once but Everytime I was alone. How do you even begin telling about some one who shaped a lumpy , thoughtless 22 years old brain and nourished it with sunshine. Funny that i got my first nickname “sunshine”. There came many a friends and loving souls since then but there is that pedestal that you just can not be moved from. All the love I have today , a wonderful husband and amazingly fun friends ; and yet there is a hope that one day I get to share this happiness with you. That you and me have one last coffee date and I get to show this post to you. 

You might wonder why this post , such thoughts. Maybe you will remember its my birthday in less than 5 days and its obvious I will start with thanking and thinking about the one bond that taught me to let go of my inhibitions. Today I can say I loved you. I love you still and want that comfort again, where you oppose every decision of mine and yet secretly celebrate my milestones. Having been in and out of friendships over the years , I know my love , i know my place. And I know my blessings.

God bless souls like you.
God bless me with friends like you.

Life changes

Changes are routines
we have grown numb to,
one day the goods reach us,
the sealed goodbye letters.

Some feelings left behind,
never the memories though
some dreams are packed away
making space for new goals.

The guests are all gone,
the audience cozy and unaware,
I pull into my last reserve
I have a reputation to take care.

I write
I reflect
I care
I am here.


Sometimes you have stuff to write, but not to write about. Its like this huge craving to read your own thoughts and yet not reveal anything going inside the head. To look around at stories happenning, and yet be selfish enough to hide from them. What if they wanted to be written and passed on ?

Someday, i will surrender.
I promise.
Someday soon i will revive this page.
This bond with words and all of you who still keep in touch here.
Someday I will be back to your world.
To your blogs.

Drifting away

Here and there
Pieces of me
My dreams
Wishes so silly
And possessive

I let them all go
Imagining to be
Feeling light and free;
But its not that way
Not even a little,
I have let go of me.

One direction, one focus,
A chance to make it happen,
Lost in the maze of life
Swinging on moods,
Am happy one second,
Pensive one night.

We all are loved
And more we all give
Does it matter i wonder
Or Another hollow promise
That we beleive
In order to live.

I want to not think
Of the corner i stand in
Using darkness to hide
From shadows of hopes
I had raised for myself,
I need to drift away, today.


A compliment that is true,
For the process I went through
In picking the right attire
And the colors and the moods,
The pink from husband’s kiss
And the peachy freshness
Of the confidence from the mirror,
The faith in my thoughts
And the beauty of my heart
Reflected on my cheeks
Made me blush, even writing this.

Being healthy – the Dabur honey Way

Summers is the best and worst time for weight loss ! Best ‘cause there are so many options for fluid intake furit diet ; worst ‘cause unless you loose weight you are going to not like what you see in the mirror . More than being comfortable with the body , I feel it is important to know how your organs feel from the inside by your lifestyle choices. I began to take note of my diet and lifestyle about 3 months back. From that day , till today it did not take me much to realize that no drastic step can help me become healthy , but it is a sum of all the small changes I bring. First healthy habit was to have lukewarm lime water with honey every morning. And to drink a lot of water all through the day. This helps in clearing the salts from body naturally by frequent urination and breaking bits of fat trapped inside the layers.

Most of the people I know struggle with the sugar intake during the day – the shakes , cold drinks ,juices in the summers and tea / coffee in the winters. I have a huge weakness for all things sweet and sugary along with an addiction for chai. Having sugarfree tea was out of question , hence the switch to honey. Same thing with milk and most fruit shakes that I prepared for my husband or self. Soon I got so habitual of using Dabur honey that now my cakes and kheer too have honey instead of sugar. Honey also helped me have more fruits as a whole meal adding corn flakes for crunch and milk on the days I feel this meal is too dry ;)

A month of practicing these diet tips , I was ready to experiment a little more. That is when I found Honey diet – the site by one of the most trusted brands in India and a household name by now. The first step was to know where I stood and what was I doing wrong. The simple BMI calculator and the Calorie counter gave me a shock. I knew I was obese but not that the simple food I was consuming had so much calories. I swear some of the counts gave me sleepless night and maybe some more hunger pangs too ;) Once I knew where I had to cut the calories , I found out the Indian Diet Plan based on my age, BMI and Calorie Intake. The Diet Planner gave me lots of Healthy recipes to help with weight loss and maintain Fitness without starving myself. Another awesome feature was the 5-minute fitness regime which made me start using the tips in routine. Since I had a pretty no-activity lifestyle , the short workout sessions suited my time and space well. Later I moved to a longer routine and better diet plans.

The thought was not that strong when I began , but as my body got used to being healthy , I saw the benefits – healthy skin , good sleep , less stress / headaches and most importantly a sense of pride in myself. Not just honey intake in food helped my food become healthy with just one simple change , the studies about its benefits show that it is much more worthy thatn we know. Honey and cinnamon powder taken in tea / food helps in anti-aging , fat-dissolving , clearing blocked arteries , reducing chances of heart attacks and so on.

Much thanks to this site and the features of a complete health package for a beginner. Do check this out and start your healthier lifestyle. It is never to late , never too much for anyone.

Love you, forever

Meant to be,

We are ,

But walk back to a moment,

We were just lovers;

Impatient , insecure,

Arrogant partly,

Mostly unsure

Of the way it will be,

Or what we wanted.

In that moment, I still feel

Hopelessly in love

With your presence

Your lingering thoughts,

Your words

Or whatever you left unsaid

With your fingertips

And lips.

And the same feelings

Flood my heart now

When I hear love vows of forever

And realize you will not be home

Tonight or tomorrow night.

What I meant to say

Perhaps is

I miss you right now,

A little too much,

You might add.

This is a rant !

There comes a point when you stop considering yourself / your views as right ; and others wrong. From admitting that other’s view is different but perhaps not wrong is a sign of growing up. I am at that point in life , but still I do not know how to deal with it. I still judge people in my own perspective. There is a mixed anger directed towards this other set of people and a little disappointment from myself . I love these people and I know they are flawed yet so much better than the world I know nothing about. These people have helped me , held me strong and held me high when life placed me at a low.

Then why is it that we cannot forgive and forget one time I felt I was let down by my friends ?

Why is it so hard to give them a benefit of doubt after all these years ?

There is so much to learn and accept !

There is so much happening in the “Grow up” phase !

I hate this.

But I still love my friends.

Beautiful skin , natural and easy way

Skin care is a full time job , be it any age. When i entered my teenage I had skin troubles due to hormonal imbalances. 10 years later it was the busy schedule , improper diet , pollution  etc taking toll on me and now , as i inch closer to 30, the age is going to show up on the face anytime. Ah ! The varied and ever present skin troubles some of us face. On top of that not each skin responds same to all treatments and care. But if you know the problem, and decide to take care of your skin regularly , it is not really hard to keep the skin peachy radiant and fresh most days ( everyday is for perfectionist. Am certainly not that)  Below are the tips and tricks i picked over the years –

1. Use a lot of water : half of the problems will never appear if the toxins are expelled from the body. Drinking lot of water will do that expertly. Also , water keeps the temperature of body regulated. Do not worry if you sweat more. Its your body expelling the salt. But do drink more water to rehyderate yourself.

Also washing face with ice cold water makes your skin feel fresh and firm.

2. Wash your face before sleeping : Never sleep with dirty face or one with make up on. Clean it well with a face wash before sleeping. This way the skin gets time to breathe and stays fresh

3. Always do a patch test for new cremes or make up : once i got a really nasty rash from a bleach creme i used. Hence the lesson to apply it on hand or behind ear before trying on face. Also avoid cheaper cosmetics and go more for organic ones. Best would be home made packs

4. Scrub your face once a week : daily cleaning will leave dead skin or dryness to still be there on face. Use besan, curd and turmeric mixture to scrub your face well every weekend. The same can be used all over the body too.

Besan , turmeric mixed with oils are used for brides too and is considered very auspicious ceremony in indian weddings.

5. Fruit therapy : not just are fruits good to be eaten for a healthy body but the fruit extracts are good for skin too. Tomato / papaya / banana are few that i frequently use on my face. Banana helps in firming the skin and has anti ageing properties. Any fruit peel can be used to clean the face and washed off with fresh water.

6. Milk and curd : raw unboiled milk or curd can also be used for dry skin mostly. Or to make face packs from other ingredients. Raw milk is also excellent conditioner for hair if applied before washing.

7. Moisturize the skin – Even the most oily skin need to be moisturized. The best way is to use a good creme in the night. This keeps the dust from sticking to the oily skin since you are at home and sleeping. Plus once you wash it off in morning, you do not have to worry about extra oily effects.


There are many organic and natural products in the market but from generations, I have seen Vicco cremes to be around and trusted much. Do try the latest VICCO TURMERIC CREAM once for a healthy glowing skin.