Realizations can happen any time , any place about anyone – provided you do not ignore them.
And when they reveal things about you, it can get a little too much sometimes.
The last month has been little stressful for me even when there been moments of great joy too. But all the talking , thinking and worrying at times did leave its mark.
While I can not and do not want to re think over those lines, here’s something I did realize -
Between you and me
I am not always in sync
With the little voice in head
I do not usually deny
It says stuff I leave unsaid.
I recognize the voice as ‘she’
the kind of spirit I am not
And she has a lot to tell me
Whether asked or not to poke.
These days she been telling
I have lost a grip on things
My head is such a mess
No logic, just all feelings.
I am scared of days to come,
And of failing people who care,
I need reassurance now and then
Am not walking alone here.
I demand a lot sometimes,
She keeps sending the warning,
But to question,if am wrong,
to that, she won’t be answering.
I feel so lost, so worthless,
I don’t know what to say or write,
Between you and me, I told her
I think we both are wrong and right.
Help me, I whispered to her,
And she filled my eyes with tears
Let it flow my dear she said,
Selfless love alone can free your fear.
~ Nimue
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Written for Month of year challenge : Nov , Sunday Scribblings , Open Link night
