what start as a really beautiful day rarely stays so for me. Am I jinxed ? or am i just not meant to celebrate early ? The day was pretty awesome as per me when I skipped sleep for watching a tv show and then went for a long walk while talking to ym bestie. The morning was beautiful , the roads so green with falling leaves and the air fresh with hopes of a rainfall.
Having tea with my roomie and some beauty session later, I fell asleep only to be woken up by hunger pangs ! Fixed myself a decent bowl of porridge and having packed a yullilicious paneer veggie for dinner , I was sure the day gonna be just fine. After all it was Friday !
And then maybe the evil fairy caught em smiling. ’cause a few teary eyes intervals later , I have managed to have an arguement with a special friend , cried over my mother’s call , cursed myself endlessly and even prayed a bit to be blessed with a strong will power.
And yet , except my mother no one can understand how much my failures affect me. How much it breaks my dreams and hopes about myself , when week after week , I find no change in my situation.
Cheerin up others , I have now no more words left to console or encourage myself at times.
And when I was almost ready to get back ym smile , I get my appraisal letter with the poor rating intact.
Never before have I been so hopeless about my carreer and future , the way I get nowdays.
I know the change is in my hands. but how exactly I gonna get to make the change , is still left to see. No promises , just lot of expectations from self.
Wish me luck !
