Guilty Pride

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I Step out of “ME”
tampered ego looms large
over forgiveness of heart -

Logic engulfs “MY thoughts”
now am done acting my part
a new chapter i wish to start;

i prepare for a war with “MYSELF”
fears and tears both now imminent
and still, a new pride i sense.

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Prompted @ 3 word Wednesday (words) and Big Tent Poetry (theme)

Monday Prompt at BTP was : You may have to take a few steps and actually move outside your comfort zone. Do something different. Do something you haven’t done in awhile.

And i chose to question my love for few people.  To see if am valued as much as i should be in not just my world. It was a pain yet i liked it.

Also Submitted to fridayFlash55

So the heart spoke

your memories : make me say
million things
heart though : blank without your love.

Life was blank , then you came
you filled the blanks ,with lyrics so beautiful
you left , wish life could be blank again

wonder who : gives the right
to you to decide
what should be erased : from MY life

memories you gave, will never erase
you may forget me, i know i never will

dare you return : any day with a sorry
to say it was a mistake
i may forgive you : yet again

I’ll never forgive you,  for all the pain you gave
for all the love i deserved , never caring for what i cared

forgive or not : you will never know
i will gone
far along my life : better alone

Alone i was when i came,  alone i’ll be when i’ll go
its the lonliness in between , that pains.

coming alone : carefree song
going alone : just music
silence at last

Silence is what is left in this life , silence is the end of life
so what is left is the end, such is life?

life itself : is the song
you : can give
just the music

i’m a song
that god composed
life gave beats to
fill it with emotions
i’m not finished yet…..

This is a collaboration post by me and my twitter buddy Preeti. (The alternate free verses that are italicized are hers , mine are all gogyohka )

Submitted to One Shot Wednesday

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Monument of Love

Who
was he
to have build
“elegy in marble”

did he really act noble
when the men so skilled
lost hands for what was created
no love is this selfish;is it ?

(This poem is an experimental trial at mixing rhymes with syllables. by attempting rhyming pattern of abcddcba to the  syllable count of 1-2-3-4-5-6-7-8.)

Prompted @ Sunday Scribblings and One Single Impression

Story behind the poem : Taj Mahal(Agra, India) is called the “elegy in marble” the tomb of Queen Mumtaz, build in her memory on orders from his husband, king Shah Jahan. There is also a rumor that the king got the hands of the artisans chopped off after the completion of Taj Mahal, so that no other such building could ever be built again.  More on this myth/tale here

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Goodbye

Farewell time.till next time we meet.And it would not be not more than a week away.On cross roads we stand, facing each other : our trains will come from opposite directions, and go opposite ways. Last Wave of hand, last smile, the wait evident in the eyes, blurred image of trains crossing each other, soon trees are all i see passing by – A new journey.


The end is near now
Forces collide;cosmos are in chaos
silently we stare each other

This is a Haibun poetry form, Prompted at Big Tent Poetry

Read More Haibun here

Dream chase

Into those dreams i fall
its a new one each day
each with fluid walls,
Into those dreams i fall.
Responding to unheard call,
towards darkness i make way,
Into those dreams i fall
its a new one each day.

Each dream though has you
hidden behind the dark veil,
not willing to see.but i do
since each dream has you.
you change faces,and voice too
can this hide your heart’s trail ?
Each dream of mine has you
hidden behind the dark veil.

One day,you know i will be there
in the darkness where you stand,
nothing you create gives me a scare
One day,you know i will be there
from my rage, you won’t be spared
your end i promise will be grand.
One day,you know i will be there
in the darkness where you stand.

This is mt first time at the Thursday Poet’s Rally . Attempted a triolet triplet.

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Closed Eyes

“you always close your eyes” he laughed!

“what do you seek in my eyes” she asked

“myself”

“you are”

“i can’t see it when we kiss”

“Crazy!”

“i know”

“remember the first time we met”

“we were seven”

And together they laughed at the precious memory – the first,innocent kiss.

Love was their destiny.

Prompted @ Thursday Tales

Also submitted to Friday Flash 55

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One Shot Wednesday

Old or young
New or known
Every poet,a gem.

Some nostalgic images
Hopping over from past,
Or the visions of future
That you wish would last.

Where ideas and words mingle
Encouraging new limits to be set,
Definitions of art get moulded,
New creations find their nest.
Each poem is a journey
Somewhere into your mind,
Delightful, insightful or soulful
Any words you give it,just be kind.
You read what you want to imagine.

For this week, i am trying an Acrostic, where each line starts with the letters from the title of the poem.

Written for One Shot Wednesday

Bliss

to let the words flow

another clean page

i see them reach other hearts

altering meaning for each

bliss beyond compare

a new post on blog.


Here i attempted to merge two haikus to make sense either read alone or as a poem.

Prompted @ Haiku Heights and Sunday Scribbling

And to add this felling is the fact that Radhika (her blog hyperlinked) presented me with this Award :

What i remember first thing about Radhika’s blog is her post Then (hyperlinked) . She has such briliance in her writing as if words align into sentence as per her desire !! Read her to be amazed and entertained like never before !!

As per the rules of theis award, i pass this to few of the bloggers i enjoy reading every week :

Brian , MoonWriter , Desert Rose , Leo , Jingle , Anthony , Buttercup , G-Man

Am sure i have missed few. Will add them later on.

(Awarded people  are supposed to please pass on this award to 4 (or more) bloogers )

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Joie de vivre

“Be happy”,
that’s what he said
on the roads of parting
“stay happy my friend”.

“how do i”,
i wondered aloud
and before i could ask,
he was no where to be found.

“But I will”
was all i could promise
knowing if i did not,
he will never be at ease.

Years have passed
times took different turns
but to be happy always
i tried best from my end.


Often when i was at loss
of reasons or people to smile
i smiled at the mirror
planting the smile in ym eyes.

“Its not something outside”
i realized, even though late
“that makes you love your life.
But the desire to have it that way”


“I am happy”
I told you in dreams one day
“and i know you too might be,
you are bound to get,what you gave”

And that is the secret
for the joyous life i made
to be happy, to make others so
nothing difficult for you to create.

Prompted @ One single Impresion

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“Life’s great always;we forget sometimes”

Written  for 6WS

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Words in my head

When love passes by you;

this storm has the fury;

to create its own way;

destroying you as it go

something new or someone dead.


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I was just there

your thoughts passed by

your smile

healing my wounds

that your words left behind.


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Appreciation heals

the oldest marks of rejection

not words,but your thought


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Appreciate every

moment passing by your day

treat it like your best

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This was one of the most random post i wrote here. Taking all prompts at once, letting them mix and compete with each other, and finally penning whatever won the fight in my mind. Please bear with me this week !

(Following image is not my creation. Adding it here since it goes with my sentiments )

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Prompted / submitted to OSI , sunday Scribblings , Haiku Heights , 6WS

Colors in life

This is my favorite spot – colorful, peaceful and unkown to the rest of the world ! Its hard to be alone for the most renowned designer in the country. But today I was free to go on a memory trip today while waiting for a very special guest.

I remembered my childhood – a skinny average IQ girl from a poor family who was considered good for almost nothing unless you count being scolded in every other class except the art class.

I remembered the day my first love, the topper of my class in college has laughed at me and asked, do you really think you are worth what you ask ? And that was when I first decided & replied with all my conviction “You don’t know about me yet, but one day you will”.

And then I remembered my first exhibition after I  finished learning design and architecture. It  was the annual cultural fest in the city. Lamps and lamp shades of glass , plastic or thick paper, in varied shapes and colors and as many different bulbs surrounded me – my face lit more with pride over my designs than the multi-colored lights from the lamps. And then SHE walked in, the small, shy looking girl with a huge grin on her face, colors playing on her pale skin, twinkle in her eyes. She was intently looking at one of the lamps.

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“Do you want to buy this?” I asked the lady with the girl.
“I should, she rarely smiles for anything or anyone like this. But look at her now, she can’t stop grinning.” the lady replied with a warm smile.
As I turned to ask the girl which color will she like for her lamp, the lady cut off my sentence fast, “She can’t hear and she can’t speak”

“I am sorry to hear that about your daughter” I said recovering from the shock.
“She isn’t my daughter. I am her mentor. She lives in an orphanage. Me and my friends go there every weekend to spend time with these kids any way they want.” she explained to me.
“You are the light to these kids” I said softly to herself but it was audible enough.
“No, we are like your lamp shades, that get beauty from the light that’s inside these kids” she said as she took out money for the lamp.
“No need, its a gift from my side.” I said as i hugged the girl and gave the lamp to her.

She looked at me for a moment before hugging me back.

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That was the changing moment in my life. I had found my calling. I was going to be a successful designer for sure but not for all. I learned more about the challenges of physically handicapped/challenged kids in our society and then i designed things for their easy use. It also gave me the reason to spend time with them, know their needs, their dreams and desires.

Today I am waiting to meet the girl again, the same who made my life seek the real cause for living. I heard she is a successful painter. And today she comes to meet her inspiration for colors – Me.

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Prompted @ Tales Thursday , Submitted also to Carry On Tuesday

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Wishes

It was your fault to wish for death;we too don’t like raging up suddenly”snapped the waves to the lover,who had lost his girl few days back.

Prompted @ Microfiction Monday

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My hard realized lesson for this week again is something i learn, forget and need to re-learn in life :

“YOU don’t DESERVE,if you beg”

Be it love, money,success or just anything you have to beg for, realize you don’t deserve that ! Maybe you deserve better or maybe do not deserve it at that particular time, Bottom line : The effort not worth it !

Remember this and you might be happy most times :)

Submitted to 6WS

A killer living

She badly wanted to break away from the negative feelings inside her ! When all looked calm on surface, only she knew of the turmoil that plundered her heart every time she saw him. And that was daily ; she was married to him; to this fucking bastard who sold her to strangers last night ! She knew what was to be done; she sold herself again ; this time on highest price available; and kicked him out of the house. He showed the way, she will follow the same. She prepared to kill herself every night to make his living worse !

I am 50 posts young

This is dedication to all my blog readers. Thanks for accepting me so well !

Don’t even know

what, when or how

this page was born;

name changed  twice

template was new thrice

words yet only mine.

Love, life and dreams

or stuff with no mean

through all i been;

penning my heart

first love then hurt

sometimes poles apart;

The journey goes on

varying winds blow

to places unknown;

Till then i shall write

forgive me when not right

and hold me tight;

amidst your cares

here and everywhere

I am always there !

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I made this for anyone and everyone who ever visited my blog :

(Feel free to copy and show it on your blogs. I will love that)

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And to end this post with one of my favorite song :

XOXOXOXO

Keep visiting !